Monday, April 30, 2012

Gratitude is a Gift

WOW! I am SO GRATEFUL for Oprah's Life Class tonight. It rekindled a light in me that I had let dim for some reason. I once did a 30 day challenge for myself to blog something positive once every day for 30 days. Well I succeeded in that but then I stopped thinking I was "done" what I had set out to do. I had quite a few people contact me about my blog and how inspired they were after reading it and that really touched me to know people appreciated my words. I now understand that I'm not "done" and I will never be "done" and that from now on I am making a commitment to myself to blog something positive once a day. Think of this as my "gratitude journal." I figure this way not only can I stay in a space of being grateful but I can also share and help others. One of my life goals is to help people live their best life. I'm always trying to guide people to see what they might not be able to with their own eyes, the thing that is right there if they only choose to look. I recently went through a romantic break up and I couldn't believe the sadness and pain (Pay Attention Inward Now) I experienced. This was my first break up of my life and I had no idea what to expect. First I was guided to read "Spirit Junkie" by Gabrielle Bernstein (follow her on twitter) the DAY before the actual break up took place (too perfect). It really helped me understand what I was experiencing and now I can look at it all with loving eyes. I'm SO grateful that I even had the opportunity to experience this beautiful relationship with this amazing man. It got me to see everything from a place of love instead of resentment and anger. Why was I so angry? Because I was holding onto expectation of what I wanted to relationship to be and where I wanted to see it go. Well the UNIverse has a better plan than we can even imagine so once I let go of expectation it gave me room to let in appreciation. I learnt so many lessons over the course of this amazing relationship that can only change my life for the better so how can I be mad at that? How can I be mad at a person for loving me the best way they knew how, NOT the way I wanted them to. That second part was ALL on me and once it clicked, I got it. Life happens not to me, but FOR me. I'm so grateful that I had enough in me to look at everything from a loving point of view. I had so many people tell me how "Sorry" they were for me but I didn't want any part of this! Why are you sorry? Why are we trained to believe that this is suppose to be a bad thing? It was amazing and perfect and exactly what it was suppose to be for me to learn the lessons in life that I needed to learn. People should be happy for me! Happy for the fact that I even had a relationship that was so beautiful to begin with. If I had chose not to learn the lessons and do the self work after then yes that would be a sad thing, because that would mean that I chose sadness over joy. As long as you chose to see the lesson and learn it there will always be joy in your life. Is it still hard, yes a little at times, I'm only still human, but staying in that place wont help me to get back to joy and love. Joy and love are the only two things I want to feel in my life and I make a choice every day of my life that I wake up to feel this way. It's not always easy and it's not always the first choice that I want to make but I do it anyway, you know why? because at the end of my life I want to look back and say "I truly did my best to live and love every moment of my life."

Today I will leave you with this: Challenge yourself to be grateful in every moment and see how you life begins to change for the better.

Grateful Journal of today...
I'm grateful for...
1) The romantic relationship I had with my ex-boyfriend
2) Oprah's Life Class tonight!
3) Having money once again flowing into my bank account
4) Getting my tuxedo sorted out for my Vancouver Men's Chorus show next week
5) Finding out about Rick Hansen's Celebration 25 and having my friend Heather accompany me to it on May 22!